It's been a little while...

Yeah. I haven't posted in a little while. Just hasn't been a lot going on lately.

Today was a nice little respite. Had the day off, since it's MLK day. Can't say I agree, entirely, with having a day of for King's birthday, but it's a day off, nevertheless. I don't understand, though, why King's birthday necessitates a day off, while Washington, Lincoln or any other important figure's birthday necessitates a mattress sale...

Anyway, as I said, just not anything exciting going on, which itself brings up a good point. Is my life a never-ending loop of getting up, going to work, coming home, going to bed and doing it all over again the next day? Sometimes, it feels that way. Sometimes, I ask myself what is so important in my life that I keep doing what I do, day in and day out? Is it a sense of duty? Is it simply to earn a paycheck?

If I had to think of my life as a constant struggle to maintain a standard of living, seems to me there's not a whole lot of fulfillment in that. I mean, if it's all about earning money to pay for things, then where's the joy? Where's the sense of pride and commitment?

I ask myself all these questions to come to an understanding of what life is about. As Tom Hanks said in the movie Castaway, "I just have to go on. I just have to keep breathing". It's a matter of existence. It's feeling like that I made a difference in someone's life and that person will, in turn, make a difference to someone else.

I do have a terrible weakness, I will admit. I am a material person. I like "stuff". I always have. Now, I am not one of these people that always has to have the best, or better than others. I can't stand talking to people like that. I have just always wanted "things". That does tend to get in the way, when dealing with life's tougher questions. When trying to be humble and selfless, it's hard for me to forget all the things I wish I had. It's difficult for me to forget about the things I desire and put the needs of others first. Not because I'm selfish. I just want "stuff".

I find, many times, that I do have a deep compassion for others. I really don't know where it comes from though. My father was always a very strict disciplinarian and taught me that males do not show emotion. This has, as anyone can imagine, created occasional roadblocks in relationships. Women like emotions. They like men who understand and relate with emotions. I still struggle with breaking the comfort barrier in that area.

Well, can't think of much more to say, at the moment. I am going to try harder to keep a schedule in updating the blog, so please feel free to check back often. I hope to keep an update going at least once a week, if not a couple of times.

Oh! On a side note, let's all pray for our new government taking office tomorrow. Mr. Obama needs a LOT of prayer, as does our entire nation.

Have a great day everyone.